I surrender.Yeah, whatever.
Wanna make accusations about me, go ahead.
Wanna assume things, go ahead.
Wanna blame me, go ahead.
FOR ALL I CARE.
I don't give a damn anymore lah.
Some people seem to be insensitive and self centered.
In one way or another.
I'm not trying to say that i'm an angel.
That i'm perfect or whatever.
I don't see what's up with the world man.
It's like you put in effort and yet you don't get what you deserve.
I hate to complain, but it's just so unfair!
I mean, what the hell do you expect me to do?
I'm not some machine.
I'm not some plushie you take out your frustrations on.
I'm not someone you can make use of.
I have feelings.
I have emotions.
I have the ability to stand up for myself.
I am human.
I'm just an ordinary girl.
Stop giving me a hard time.
I'm just someone who wants things to be fine.
Not even "good".
I just wish for fine, i'm satisfied.
But things are far from fine.
I have my best friend telling me that things are not going to be the same anymore.
When i'm trying my best here to cheer both of us up.
And all he does is be pessimistic.
He doesn't even seem to be interested in brightening up the situation.
It's like i'm trying to conquer this mountain.
And everytime someone drowns me with statements like "things are not gonna be the same anymore",
I fall back down to the ground.
And i have to start climbing all over again.
It's tiring you know, to be discouraged so often!
I have a bunch of childish boys mocking at me.
They think its funny,
But actually, it's super lame.
It's super immature.
And it's hurting.
But they just never realise it.
Stupid jokes.
Can't you guys put yourselves into my shoes?
Can't you guys think of how it feels like if you were me?
Can't you guys just be abit more sensible?
And why are you doubting me.
When i trust you so much.
Have i once gone paranoid over all those things you've done?
Seriously, i could've made a big fuss out of it but i didn't.
But you say you're upset with me.
You blame me.
You go into a bad mood.
But you don't tell me why!
I don't even know what i did wrongly.
And there i am just being silly.
Trying to not start a quarrel.
It's like you punched me for nothing.
And instead of taking my revenge, i even try to make the relationship between us better.
It's so dumb!
I don't know why i'm acting like that!
It's just so unbelievable.
All i want, is to know what's going on.
Is that very difficult?
I'm just super confused now.
It's just that i think i have too many things to cope with at one go.
I don't know.
Oh damnit.
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Heh, let's lighten up abit.
CAUSE IT'S MANDY'S BIRTHDAY!
Hahaha.
Happy birthday my bitching partner.
:D
You're old.
Hahahaha, kidding!
Hope you have good hairdays all year round.
<3,
`PEARLYN/.
